Thursday, June 01, 2006
haiz... hi guys...today going to leak out my worries here le...finally...wah..so strange...blogger change format le...very happy...haha.. actually my happy is all fake de la...i am tired and sad....there is abt 2 mths since i step in this private blog le... ur all shld noe why i come here and write...becoz tis is mean to be secrets betw us only...hha...haiz...still think abt genie leh..i tell myself to forget but still can't leh...i wish that i can remove myself from this situation..these few mths i keep seeing her and a guy of my class called august la...they walked around to find chers and to emath lessons... erm...how to say leh...maybe is i worry too much le bah... jealous? i dunno leh...too complicated le...tai duo yi le bah...haiz..suan le...dun think too much...:wah...sumtime i can't bear to msg her...then whn i receive her msg..i will smile...n the rest of my day will be great le...haha....too over le...haha... juz happy la...but her msg is always short...but sweet le....haha...3mths le...i wait 4 3ths le...dun think i can wait few more mths... i also can't get to her...she too much gal de frens le...then very very uneasy situation...can't talk to her...dun dare to...so timid...haha...like got a barrier in betw like that... i juz 1 to kill myself...haiz... continue whn i am free bah...:)
frens4ever
@ |4:50 PM|
Thursday, March 30, 2006
yup...juz hv the time to pop here to blog...after today incident(www.lawcm.blogspot.com/) i really my decision liao.. i told my meis that from april 1 2006 i will start again to be their da jie liao.. and i will try to forget the things happened between i and her from the time beings...wah wat i write in the public blog really sort of pass to jean's ear...haiyo...claud saw that i will wait 4 jean..told her..then she told her dun 1 me to wait..but give her sometime to herself.. conc on her studies n dun wan to think abt all those love things.. i understand her la..i also can't wait anymore liao..really deep inside of my heart..there's a place 4 her...and i am sure i will keep that 4 life de.. one sided love can't help much de..really...and also we two are busy ppl...busy wif jubilee and o's ..for her..her dance..piano..arts...wah..so many...mi onli choir...haha.. but wat i can say is that i will giveup now..n see how time decide on our fate after o's bah...maybe we can be best frens like anton and yunt leh...who noe...all need to wait till i hv taken this impt steps...and from apr 1 i will treated her like mei...but a special mei bah...ghhaha..like wat she says after we broke...treat her more impt than other mei...haha..i will de...forever will...
but to be honest...seeing her slping really sweet n beautiful..haha...okok...my mei my mei..muz keep thinking is my mei my mei...or else after o's might cross over..can't can't..hah...so long nv blog liao...then keep thinking the passwd is wat..haha...4 abt 3mins...then suddenly rmb...haha...wonder gt who really go see this de...haiz... but i noe i will care 4 my mei(her) and she will also care 4 me AS A GOR DE....SINCE AFTER THE BREAK... SHE ALWAYS CALL ME GOR DE..and the sms is getting lesser n lesser...but i won't be angry de..coz i am her gor ah..haha...surely we will walk together to the gates of the o's lvl de...wahahahaa....
sad mah?...i dun think so..maybe no tears le bah..haha...no sad liao..however...happ-ier coz can GET BACK MY mei liao...wahaha...my very special mei since sept 2005 holidays...haha...
frens4ever
@ |9:06 PM|
Saturday, February 25, 2006
this word really hurts me alot lo...haiz...where to start neh...so long nv rite liao..very difficult to pick a specific pt to start leh...haha... frenshp ah i start wif guys 1st...in my class i hv onli 1 best fren which is nick..dunno why this friendshp this yr start to turn sour liao..dunno y he "Walk" away from me...with him around i really feel happy lo..even he suan me...i will feel happy..even 4 now..thu he call me mah..wah..suan me since last mth didn't liao..haha..so glad..he still wants to call me...anyw that day he is lonely la..so call me chat..dunno y chat wif him..time flies..easy can hit 1/2hr...haha..n we dunno y very tan de lai...haha..but in class...totally different...we sit far opposite..hv very little time chat..n he now turn in wif another grp liao...i hv say be4..i 1 to be myself..nt to be a follower liao..so i let him go...n i go my own...dunno i did de right time or nt..coz now i am alone walking hm n such...if i was wif him..stick wif him..will it changes...i dunno also...the cup noodles we used to eat at rivervale plaza..the marsh potato we eat outside de staircase of sci block...times flies..hope i can continue that frenshp...bless me..:)
kb gor.. dunno y..suddenly..lost of words whn mention him...maybe understand too much..too close liao..like nth great to asy abt...really really..he gets really far from me liao...so far that i now can't even detects his feelings...he hv his new grp of JC frens call "0615"...noe that he is happy abt that...wei ta hapi also...really gets onli fews n fewer sms from him liao...haiz..maybe we too similar le..i dun1 to sms him..scare he nt in great mood...he also ba...haiz...suddenly felt so lonely...
yhock gor...haahaha..noe u are seeing now..haha...muz say gd words...no la..haha..jk...yhock really will care 4 me..n give me his opinion to my probs la...n whn i call him..i no need to feel embrassed or guilty..haha...then juz talk lo...haha...he is very easy-going..very lovely guy..haha..bless me that whn he enter poly he will nt lone me..haha...bless me...pray 4 me..ba...thanks god!!!...
samuel gay fren...haha...he always bring laughter to me de..haha..he so funny despite my frens say him bad words...he still treat me gd...haha..n we can gay around...dun care others...love it...ok...continue wif de gals part nxt day...bye...!!
frens4ever
@ |12:21 AM|
Friday, February 03, 2006
haiz...it had been weeks since i blog le ba...haha...anyway..onli gt 2 viewers mah..so also no need updated so often....haiz..this wk...life still goes on as normal..i n yw still frens..no straneness liao..then i still avoiding vic..going to pass her a letter lo..haiz..maybe that sat be4 my bd..i shldn;t stay clsoe to her...but..the bus thr onli gt me n her alone...but...dunno leh...she start 1st...but..i can't do it leh...haiz...i juz take that as a funny way la...she hold my arms on the bus say wat scare fall off from bus...|| ...haiz...then let her hold lo...can't push her to another side mah...haiz...shld hv take a further bus wif sengy...so that nth will happen...haiz...nvm...all over liao...maybe this impression let her think that way shldn't to be thinking de ba...haiz...why mz this happen to me...even untill this yr...so sian n tired of tis..liao...so tired of explain to cherine i didn't do anyt liao...so tired of avoiding her liao...haiz...really veryvery tired liao...n during class...is like almost de whole class noe abt genie n me liao..dunno y..i juz hate that..maybe i need privacy ba...but is like last time i n yw lesser ppl noe ma...now every1 in the class is seeing us...haiz...making fun of us..really dun1 this to happen anym lo..u noe those bad guys n those seven flowers..haiz...actually is us didn't keep a secret la..so obvious lo..since last yr..everytim pass letters n sit together during ELlesson only...free sitting mah..haha...but only these only mah..haha..maybe i need a space to breathe ba..so tired of all those things liao..n also genie si also busy wif her dance n chingay parade thingy...haiz...i dunno y dun hv much feelings as the previous 1 leh...likw no memory leh...maybe juz start or maybe too close liao...dunno leh..i still questioning myself whether i did de write tihng on de 15 of jan...haha....so fortuate...14 of feb will be our 1 mth liao..n also valentine..haha...she tell me muz buy her present oh..haha...ya i sure will buy de..hehez...dunno leh...kb say i became more happy liao..after that...steady...nt sure leh..life still goes on as normal..onli that i feel a bit embrassed wif we2 together la...haha..but then is like talk softer n weeter than be4..haha..dunno leh...ahaha...actually be4hand...last yr from now i did like to ask her whether she gt like me or nt la..i really didn't expect much la..coz mi nt handsome or wat...haha..
frenshp:...haiz..this tihng i haven't talk 4 long time liao...dunno wat to say...haiz..my sort of best fren nico...last yr...as i say this yr...he is say nt my best fren anym...haiz..since he 1 to go to another grps of guys instead of me...then i can't say any disagree or wat mah...n nvm la..few mths left onli...march will be more ppl liao..then also won;t get to see him liao...but now every math lesson..both A n E...can sit wif him..coz banded mah..then condience that...nt much ppl i noe in that clas..except him..haha...so finally can sit wif him thru that lessons..haha..ya..really have fun...i coach him math prob..n he "bully" me..haha...i also dunno myslef whether he is my best fren or nt..is like...he is going wif another guy than me..mi nt jealous la...i am always alone de...haiz...then wif shiliang...haiz...scare liwen angry...aiya..dunno wat to do also..quite gd la..wif sl...normal good frens lo...haha...n few guys onli mah...wat u expect...haha...sian..so boring...write so much nonsense....sian..no body chatting wif me in msn neither..i felt empty n lonely now...haiz...listen to tian hui...haiz..my tian really hui liao...dun hv an quan gan from genie neither...haiz....to be honest..that feelings will gone in months time..TRUST ME..:'(
frens4ever
@ |11:01 PM|
Saturday, January 21, 2006
wah...dunno how many donkeys' yrs haven't blog liao....miss blogger so much....n somehow...can't differeniate betw private n public...love n others...haha....but nvm..haha...wat i 1 to say i shld be contented...haha...i got my frens...my family...my love..my gors n meis...wah...shld be xin fu....butbut...like lacks of sometin like that leh...haha...humans are like that de...1 to have more whn they already have that....haha..dunno i shall said this or nt...haha...but still say..coz onli gors n meis noe...n that mei i refer to..is too busy to read my blog lo..haha...so..i can feel free to write...watever i can...i like...i n my close "mei"...have been noe from abt a whole full yr le ba...she ah...smilez very very nice...shiny white teeth...again...i feel that we have so many things in common...love performing arts...drawing also...i like to draw too..nt much pps noe oh...but is onli i free then i draw...but those boring lessons really makes me wanted to slp or draw pics...haha...wah..today is like A WEEK lo...haha...so fast...mi really love been in a close relationshp..hehez...to be honest...can hv a person..to think of..n miss to...haha...where shld i start neh...haha...still rmb last sat..mi msg her..abt been bf instead of gor cause no need to write so many words..haha...n she call me fake "bf"...haha...then sun nitez...i chat wif hock that time...she msg me...abt hw...haha..then dunno y slowly de topics become love lo...haha..she ask me whether like her or nt...then i ask hock really 1 to say my feelings from my heart...or avoid de topics...then i decide to say..."like u can nt meh"...haha...maybe is this straightforward-ness...lead to the start of this relationshp..hah...ya...since 2005 i have been writing letters to her...even before yw...we thru letters talk alot...frenshp...love...family...cca...many la...mostly abt sch n homerm life...haha..then chineselesson that time is i really enjoy de...we all sit together in a aircon rm..wi my meis...yt..genie..claud...n shiliang n darren..so happi...de aircon blow bl0w...then chat while mr ng is teaching..eating sweets...haha..fun fun...this yr classrm system...a bit dun like...can't stay wif thm...abit uneasy...but will slowly xi guan de..hah....i also dunno whn i start like her de...haha...to be honest..she is my 1st close gal...or shall i say the close gal...haha...whn see her everytim...she will wear a smile n wave to me...still rmb whn i wave..then step on the water..guess wat..i fall down...haha..nico is laughing lo..hha...nvm...haha...ya this busy gal has t odo perfect duty from now on...n still gt that chingay2006..hahaha...will look out 4 her on tv feb4 if i am nt wrong...haha...but nvm i will wait 4 her 4 apr to come..haha...anyw...tell u a secret...hahaha...oct that time...we meis n me go eat mah...at cp..then send claud n melissa left to take 83...left me n her..then i wif her 4 bus 80 or 119....kovan mah...87 cannot oh...haha..then we chat lo...haha...abt her directions n yw...haha...wah...that time to be honest abit angry...how come she nv add me as her's 1 of directions...it is a nt shuai enuf...or wat...haha....(anyw i am xiang wo zou now)...haha..then wah she told me she also dunno wat she is doing...juz wish o's could quickly ended..n she really look 4ward to study in a arts/dance sch ba...after o's...then in her blog...she also got say abt her n her him..haha...so enivous...dunno whn can i hv that...haha...coz that time yw is cold to me mah...hash....coz...i noe last time she like her "f---dy"...haha...ya....THEY BOTH loves arts la..then draw draw lo...haha...so gd can hv same topics in common..then i am her 1st fews viewer of her "personal blog"..that blog wif her n her "..>"..haha...ya quite xian mu la...n i that time also shock dao like kb gor...that thingy really real or nt...then after that noe aiya...she dreamed de...but really looks very real...haha..that time shld think that aiya...she gt ppl who she like liao..so didn't think to go on...haha...beside...i still hv yw to wait...that time...haha...wah...is like so fast...nvm...this lastyr in nv i will take care of her..be her ONLY shoulder to rely...noe her better...n let her noe me more n better...n..to study together n hv great results in o's together..then we can MAYBE hv a real stead after that...aiya shld dun wish to think so far..haha....live in the present...look 4 the future infront...but muz rmb to rmb ur pasts....those learnings that make u grown n smarter....haha...gtg watch tv show lo....enjoy de rest of posts...haha...no time to blog more lo....nxt time ba....ciao:)
frens4ever
@ |11:07 PM|